Adventure

6 days, 225 km and 15500 vertical meters - in about a week I leave for my solo ski transalpine tour. I will start on 29th of March in Oberstdorf and should end up in Meran on April 3rd. 

The past 8 weeks I spent any time possible in the huts in Tyrol and the Dolomites, home office became “alp office” :) and I wore my
ski boots / running shoes more often than normal shoes :)
70 km running, 100 km ski touring, painful hours of black rolling and yoga are my current weekly routine.
I was working very hard improving my technical skills, fitness and mental stability. This preparation also led to a very strict diet to get my body to the fittest possible. (Detailed workout and food plan can be shared on request). 

The six days during the tour I will completely “stay” on the mountains. No stop at huts, sleeping under the stars and carrying all my gear, food, clothes and "bed".
I'm very excited to be at the place on earth where I feel most alive. I thought a lot whether I should do this or not, about the risks, what could happen and so on... but in the end, always the same question came to my mind:

"Wenn nicht in diesem Leben... wann dann?" 

This is the estimated route I will take. The very detailed one will be shared once I'm back since it will be recorded with the GPS.

Please understand that I have disabled the comment function. I really appreciate all your support, concerns, advices, skeptic reactions and worries but this is something I need to do and there is nothing left to say. 
I’m very well prepared, physically as well as mentally, my gear has been checked and “approved” by specialists and I have considered most of the possible risks and there are “back up plans” in case something happens.  
You gave me words of affirmation, some of you also showed me that you don’t understand at all and even some were actually very rude but I am still thankful for any reaction.
I really do think about the things you tell me - but in the end it is my decision because it is my life - and you need to accept it.

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I am only able to do all this because of my wonderful mother. 

"Mami, thanks for helping me becoming a strong, fearless and independent woman. 
You showed me that it is more than ok being different, not always fitting in but always being authentic. I really didn't want to become anyone else than I am right now. 
Thanks for being my role model, showing me that the only fear in life is regret, teaching me the right things about honesty, truth, happiness and especially love. 
Thank you for believing in me and telling me that I make you proud, also thank you for showing me how to fight and the fact that you gave me the ability to always think positive. 
Thanks for always supporting my decisions even if they sometimes doesn't make sense to you in first place, thanks for holding my hand when I have a broken heart and thanks for telling me it is ok to break an engagement because the heart is not a 100% with it. Thanks for showing me what I deserve as a woman and giving me light in the darkest nights. 
Thank you for showing me what it means to be a loyal, caring and loving partner in a relationship / marriage, even in hard times you have never lost a bad word. You are the reason why I'm not afraid to bring up / talk about hard topics in a relationship or friendship.
​It is never easy but I can do it without fear. 
I will always remember what you said to a friend about love and being a single mum of three…
​"A divorce isn't such a tragedy, a tragedy is staying in an unhappy marriage, teaching your children the wrong things about love…" This is what you have done 18 years ago.
You do not only use words you also act like those. 
I know you have sleepless nights and rough days when I climb mountains and spend the days out there but you have never stopped me from doing it, just because you know how happy it makes me. 
You are such a selfless person and you think more about others than yourself, you showed me what respect is and how to treat people.
Because of you I don't know the feeling of "revenge" or don't want to give back
people the things they did to me.
I thank you, that I got your forgiving heart but also
​ the wisdom to know when to give someone the last chance.  
Because of you I am able to make decisions and don't be too afraid of consequences  - you support me regardless - even if you know it better from the beginning. 
Thank you for passing on your braveness and the fact I don't have to be afraid of anything. 
Thanks for all the things you have done and still do for me, I admire you for your courage, your huge heart, your wisdom about live and the ability to love unconditionally.
I love the way you make me smile, our girls days, the trips we take, our conversation and trustful relationship we have. I wish everyone could experience such a strong woman as a parent but I am (and of course the other two :) are) the lucky one. 
I even have to thank you that I got your super stubborn head, the fact that I never run out of arguments in a discussion (I like to have the last word :) ) and of course… the sulking… :) 
Thank you for not just giving me your green eyes :) but also your strong personality. Thanks for passing on the passion for nature, animals and especially cooking / food.. 
I know we haven't always been best friends and we had our rough times but the past doesn't matter anymore - only present counts.
I love you more than words can express. This is dedicated to you. Thank you Bausa" 

I don't what will happen in the future but I wanted to have it written so people know about this wonderful woman I'm proud to call my mother.